Ego Death

by Shakelous

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released January 26, 2016

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Track Name: Down
let's get it out son
and flex this skill that i've perfected
and turn the light switch on and off three times in a row
this ocd shit got me stressing but really what's the lesson?
what we learning? come on man let's go on and test it.....

if x plus y means the square root of you
how the fuck is that gonna help me get through to you?
i mean, i've been trying, i've been grinding and climbing
and boiling all the flavors of top ramen up on my oven

i just, grind my teeth up in my sleep
talk to myself till i can count up on some sheep
vibe to the beat, speak whatever comes to mind
and rewind it a couple times and see what i can find

anything can inspire and this moment is a gift
so in the present with my vocal presence i'ma fucking wreck it kid
your quack rap turned me from a nice guy to an asshole
and now it's time to set it straight and switch it to smash mode

i've been down
dwelling in the underground
i've been down
i've been down
dwelling in the underground
i've been down
i've been down
dwelling in the underground
i've been down

if i could count every promise that i made
without plans to go through with it?
i'd need at least a hundred more hands
its the quiet introversive kid who's really a slick talker
who shunned the light in the day to become a night walker

armors necessary
better get some for your stupid neck and face
dead weight my brain is just dead space
"fuck it" is my thesis, preach the gospel like i'm jesus
if i'm stepping to that stage i'm set to tear that shit to pieces

he's a meaner mother fucker than that dude who left your mom
and i'm setting the bomb;
get ready to run; i'm rolling upper echelon
S - O - F was my system of beliefs
but at this point? im not even peeping your last joint

'cuz my music is superior than everything you tried to do
my entire crew is alright without a guy like you
it's not beef, it's just jealously
keep playing your part you're fucking ruining art
Track Name: Keep Sleeping (feat. Gloom Rap & Animus)
[shakelous]
each day i wake up more miserable than the last
clocking in and out of work, watch a couple hours pass
inhale some fresh air and lock myself away from that
and spend whatever times left up on xbox or making tracks

i love the isolation,
that's why i cut everyone the fuck out my life with no hesitation
i'm lacking patience and i'm craving innovation
but i can't seem to find a single shred of motivation

yo i'm drowning myself in malt liquor to
break out of this rut and pick a different mood
but nothing ever seems to change, bought a couple beats today
probably never use em but at least my boy grizzly's paid

sometimes i wish that i had chosen a different path
but there's no way to go back i burnt all my photographs
and on behalf of fucking my mental state
i'm sorry for the drama but there's no way to set it straight

i just keep sleeping
i just keep sleeping
i just keep sleeping
sleeping my days away
i just keep sleeping
i just keep sleeping
i just keep sleeping
sleeping my days away

[gloom rap]
i cant believe that i woke up again
after this cocktail of oxys and henn
handful of valium makes the room spin
my outlooks been bleak when does happiness begin

fuck! i'd be content with content
why was i born? i never gave consent
now i struggle on a daily basis
to get through another day even though i hate it

can't stand myself, won't look in the mirror
cuz everytime i do my ugliness is clearer
it ain't just physical i can my mindstate
as it deteriates at a high rate

don't wanna deal with any of my problems
on the real i think i've hit rock bottom
cuz now it's common to injest these toxins
often, because that's my best option

i just keep sleeping
i just keep sleeping
i just keep sleeping
sleeping my days away
i just keep sleeping
i just keep sleeping
i just keep sleeping
sleeping my days away

[animus]
trying to wake up, but i stay stuck
in this place of disdain in this hatred in plain sight
these insane fucks make me not wanna say much
to convey what's on my brain so I stay shut

out from the world, i feel like im comatose
wanna overdose on life so my soul can grow
trying to see stars but the city lights won't condone
i'm trying to write a book you people using post it notes

but i'm focused though, trying to hold my nose above
a heap of bullshit that overflows
can't rope a dope forever i gotta throw some blows
my face is broken and swolle

i can't see my target i can't be alarmed
but i can't seem to harness my stampeding heart
trapped in this lucid dream till i'm nullified
this pyramid scheme of control is the lullaby
Track Name: Never That
the name is shakelous, and in case you didn't fucking know of it
i'll crack your fucking skull to find your brain and take hold of it
and wrap it up real tight with some sticks of dynamite
release the pressure trigger real slow, now you've had your mind blown

to bits you ignorant bitches need a vicious ass kicking
if show mercy leaving you breathing i'm failing the mission
i'm pacing and wishing to abolish and demolish
everything that got you this far, an ima do it, that's a promise

that i'm keeping cuz i'm reaping out the souls of these cretins
and restoring this fine art by removing the weakness,
that you spread with your wackness and bitch tactics
hip hop supremacist, and a rap fascist

we gotta weed out these quack rap cats spewing lax shit
gushing from their lips like your bitch on my mattress
massive with speech and the flow nice, hoes like
when i kick it slick to em on the phone all night

with some other scummy bitch sleeping next to me
pressing against me with her ass cheeks still compressing d'
testing me ain't really a smart move dude
cuz i'll mush your fucking face till your sipping on soft food

of the geber variety, and if you try to fucking lie to me
i'll make you fuck your own ass bro, that's self sodomy
take your main artery and slice it
no point of going against me when you know im the nicest

cuz i, keep it fresher than some newly squeezed juice
while you're as up to date as fucking last years news
it's stupid if you thinkin' you can meddle with this monster
ill pull your fucking mask off reveal that you the true imposter

no scooby doo
interested dyslexic bitches asking all their friends "he's who?"
it's the venomous nemesis with the sickest of sentences
stay ripping it ravenous; my presence is omnipotent

while you're just impotent, but that's not a shocker
my whole fist is stuck in your chick, please a doctor
we need a scalpel over here
cuz i peeped your fucking cd now i'm bleeding from the ears
Track Name: Trapped Inside
im not getting out of bed today or tomorrow,
the sinking feeling in my throat is too much to swallow
feel like throwing up - feel like packing it in
feels like blue winter happening all over again

feeling so cold and i'm losing my hold
my creativity is absent when i'm out a part of the fold
all i do, escape to the silence of my own mind
isolated for days and i'm hoping that they don't find

a reason to reach out 'cuz i ain't picking up your phone call
sanity is slipping and i'm hoping that i won't fall
but if i do, it's all good, i'll accept the fate
i'm way past the point no return, i'm too late

i'm trapped inside
i'm trapped inside
i'm trapped inside
i'm trapped inside
trapped inside of these four walls all alone
this prison that i'm living in is not a home
there's no way out but im hoping to find
the quickest way to get outta my mind

couple beers in the fridge n whiskey in the freezer drawer
black out before sunset, wake up at three or four
rinse and repeat. any day of the week.
depression ain't the only reason vision is bleak

i'm just numb apathetic and overly pessimistic
my hatred for everything is far from a gimmick
its a sickness, deeply embedded in my genetics
passed down from my mother, i'm the only one to get it

each side of my brain is so odd and deranged
i can't even tell the difference when moods changed
but, everyone around thinks i'm going insane
shut in from from the world is where the fuck i remain
Track Name: Rock On (feat. Joey 2 Sites)
[joey 2 sites]
i got my vans on, kohl's sale pants on
up in this bitch like a tampon
rubber bands on, the outside of my money
from LI to philly where it's always mother fucking sunny

thigh gripping my side chick
and i got one hand on her titty
the other holding some fried chicken
my spitting fire shit is hotter than your mom's tit
first time on the track in 8 years, bomb shit

pompous ain't no mother fucking fakes here
let me introduce my man dan shakespeare
eating fake rappers up until his plates cleared
(where's daddy?) at the bottom of the lake dear

[shakelous]
you better drop to the floor when i enter the building
unless you came for the raw then put your hands to the ceiling
it's shakelous, the name always flying out your lips
back rhyming with the fliest dude that i ever met

joey 2 sites and I made sure that my boots tight
to kick your fucking ass and turn this cypher to a food fight
better pipe n' put the mic down fucker right now
im coming to pull your bitch out her night gown

and every chick in the place is like whose he
all they ever get is cum on their shirt and bruised knees
illest mother fuckers ever on beats or loose leaf
one inch punching your bitch up in her cunt no Bruce Lee

you better get with the style coming up right now
everybody in the world straight love the sound
we rock on rock on
rock on rock on rock on
you better get with the style coming up right now
everybody in the world straight love the sound
we rock on rock on
rock on rock on rock on

[joey 2 sites]
shakes and joey 2 sites, your boy and his bitch
i fucked your little sister (woops) Freudian slip
i put it in her butt i guess she into that
she did some shit i never even seen up on the internet

good thing i taped it and sent it into bang bros
now the whole world can watch me playing with her mangos
i'm just trying to sit around and play call of duty
with a thick chick with some big tits and a booty

i just wanna get fucked up and make tracks,
fuck a southern bitch on the top of a hay stack
i like bitches like white bitches love avocado
and fuck bitches constantly like Avogadro

[shakelous]
long islands what I rep, 516 is the number
the grid is where I'm at when I'm not balls deep in your mother
im a beast in the covers, pounding cheeks till they rupture
if they scream for it rougher, leave it three different colors

that's red black and blue; the best rapping dude
stepping up to your crew like what the fuck you gon' do?
suicidal homicidal genocidal fucking zombie
at your daughters recital dressed as bill cosby

who wanna taste my barbecue sauce?
you'll never get back the hours that you lost
use your cd to cut your fucking head off
4 iron in your chicks ass is how i get the lead off
Track Name: Perfect
perfection is an art, perpetrated by all you bitches women
that don't really know who you are
you just project an image of people you see up on your television
and roll your eyes when i'm begging you listen

to reason, you're bleeding out your soul through your wallet
and the vicious cycles gone on too long for you to stop it
i can't help but hate, cuz it's so hard to relate
you've been lying through your teeth the whole time, it's too late

i think it's longer overdue that you take a look around
you've burned every bridge that would let you out of this town
your friends all came and gone and your family cut ties
cuz you're lost deep within your huge wicked web of lies

if you could just step back and open up your ears
and listen to the preaching you've been avoiding for years
you would see that there's people all around
who wouldn't care about the past and would always hold you down

BUT you would do anything if it gave you more attention
and it burns you over and over you haven't learned the lesson
cuz you still want to please these people who don't care
and then you're crying wondering why no one's ever there

when you're at your wits and and you need em the most
the people you held close, all turned into ghosts
and now you fallen so far and you've lost it all
you go through your whole phone and no one answers a call

don't you see i'm perfect (no no)
they don't know me
not not anymore
don't you see i'm perfect (no no)
they don't know me
not not anymore

perfection is a front, that's all it's ever gonna be
but you refuse to see it when you're standing right in front of me
its obvious to everyone, you don't need 20/20
don't bother with excuses, man i've heard more than plenty

you can accomplish anything, just gotta work a little harder
but you'd rather wait for nothing to happen and play the martyr
and as soon as you continue to yield the same results
you'll immediately blame someone else for your faults

it's a sickness that's bred in the back of your head
you'll be taking advantage of every one until they're dead
and even after, you'll probably be filled with sick laughter
no one ever could have predicted this disaster

you're probably the most broken person that i've ever met
dragging everyone around you down into the depths
any day now all this bullshits gonna be over
and youll be looking back at your life knowing that you've blown it

don't you see i'm perfect (no no)
they don't know me
not not anymore
don't you see i'm perfect (no no)
they don't know me
not not anymore
bring you down into the ground
bring you down
bring you down to the ground
bring you down into the ground
bring you down
bring you down
don't you see i'm perfect (no no)
they don't know me
not not anymore
don't you see i'm perfect (no no)
they don't know me
not not anymore
Track Name: Hollow
im about two seconds away from a hospital visit
but gotta take a minute to extinguish all of these critics
that be thinking i took my ball and went home,
bitch, i chose isolation and to sit on this dead throne

i'm hollow to the bone, branded with the dark sign
marching alone at the front of the line
this isn't hip hop or horrorcore, this is my fucking life
manic depressive music from a drunken lunatic, it's nothing nice

i don't make mixtapes, and i don't want a record deal
i just want to find something in this world that's fucking real
i bet that i won't, so accept that i don't
give a damn about your plans when my hands around your throat.

i fuck like i hate love, my passion is never lacking
and misery of others is the reason that i'm laughing
thought patterns are a battlefield, my brain is at war
im not just dying on the outside, i'm rotten to the core

i don't know who i became
no more blood is in these veins
i don't even know my name
there is nothing that remains
hollow hollow
hollow hollow
terrified and petrified
i don't ever want to die
but something that is deep inside
has left my soul petrified
hollow hollow
hollow hollow

there is nothing left for me to say, no line for me to spit
it's stan marsh's birthday and everything i see is shit
my cynicism is prison and i'll never break free
only to writing to myself as a reason to keep these

sharp blades away from severing main veins
but like bill murray im stuck living the same days
no groundhog is ending this winter i stay living in
its taking everything i got to stop me from giving in

i don't see the point when there's no end in sight
and beef's the only time i ever really put a fight
every songs about a bitch, i guess this time it's me
cuz im always prying open my brain for everyone to see

this songs another memoir of the broken and defeated
the last moments of my life before i stop breathing
and before it's all over i want you all to know
that you never knew the real me, but it's time to go

i don't know who i became
no more blood is in these veins
i don't even know my name
there is nothing that remains
hollow hollow
hollow hollow
terrified and petrified
i don't ever want to die
but something that is deep inside
has left my soul petrified
hollow hollow
hollow hollow
Track Name: No Way Out (feat. E The Rapper)
years go by and nothing ever seems to change
and every single day of my life is the same
there's no way out
years go by and nothing ever seems to change
and every single day of my life is the same
there's no way out

[shakelous]
all i want is to play video games and watch lucha underground
but im forced to work and have to move some extra bud around
and every single day i come home to my girl smiling
deep inside im stressed and been dreaming of fucking violence

i wish didn't have to take zoloft to feel human
its no solution, i really fucking feel stupid
i just drown out the numbness with beats and memes
not a drop of happy left, i'm just a hate machine

there's no changing the fact that i'm a pessimist
i'm getting really sick and want to end this shit
the next person that tries to run their lips
is getting hit with a mother fucking sunset flip

art is the only thing i have left that calms me
otherwise i walk this island like a zombie
pour my brain out in songs record em and don't release em
cuz my life is fucking crazy and motivation is decreasing

i watch the days fly by like a time lapse
procrastinating when i really should be writing raps
but i have no intention, that's a worthless suggestion
nothings gonna change till i end this depression

and no, there's no cure. i'm so sure.
anyone that ever tried to help me got a closed door.
stuck in my ways, that's the end of discussion
i'm just a product of my own self destruction

years go by and nothing ever seems to change
and every single day of my life is the same
there's no way out
years go by and nothing ever seems to change
and every single day of my life is the same
there's no way out

[e the rapper]
i complain a lot, and i dwell on all my mistakes cuz i made a lot
i say all the hell with all the hate i'ma make it out
when it seems like everybody got a basic route
exist until we're fading out

it's hard for me to find my place
to conversate with an honest face
without a lot to say would be kind of great

when you're alone and your solitude swallows you
no one to acknowledge you,
you just grab the bottle and swallow,
every doubt in you, this pathetic life

this is every night why can't i just get it right
same old repetition
but my brain has become way less forgiven
i wasn't meant to finish, i wasn't meant to get it
but i still test my limits and invest in shit
when i don't really get the fucking picture

like i want the fame, and i want it easy
i would become amazing, but i speak freely
no secrets i can't and i won't keep em
i've been feeling week can't stand on my own feet

see i've been taking a beating, this is life though
every year it's like i'm making just a slight growth
never large steps, every days a large mess
tried to follow my heart but don't know where my heart went

all stressed but i'm on deck for the progress
even if it's working hard for these small checks

years go by and nothing ever seems to change
and every single day of my life is the same
there's no way out
years go by and nothing ever seems to change
and every single day of my life is the same
there's no way out
Track Name: Fallen
is anyone out there?
can anyone see me?
can anyone free me?
from within this mental prison
i built all these walls so you wouldn't hear me

cuz i'm sick of you; and i'm sick of us
fighting over nothing turns dangerous
cuz you hate the fact that i'm shakelous
but it's too late for me to ever change it up

the person that i projected
became the one that is accepted
after all that i've invested
i'm finally on the right direction

and yes i will protect it
regardless if you protest it
the next time that i am threatened
i'll show you why i'm infected

yo the mission never ended for me
and i know that you can't stand to see
me getting any attention because
cuz everything we've got is just a fantasy

and i'm halfway out the door now
ready for the fall out
the next time you dare to come at me
all ya gonna see is me walk out

fallen
i'm fallen
i'm fallen
i'm fallen
i'm fallen

every single person that i've pushed away
is never coming back and it's sad to say
that i'm better off without em
never would have doubt that
without em i'd never be the man today

but they ain't getting any more credit
got something to say just dead it
yo i'm way better off without pain and loss
or watching all my friends go through H withdraws

and as i stand here the only one left
from the PXC that you can see
you're never gonna even come close
to the fucking smallest piece of me

with hip hop i've defined
the dual visions of mind
broken through the roots of my truth
making moves and i continue to climb

out this, hole that i dug for myself
and i ain't doing it for no one else
getting rid of you was the best thing
that i ever did for my own fucking mental health

and i, knew i was set up to fall
after all done it's inevitable
but nothing you ever gon' do
is ever gonna ever gonna stop me
cuz i am a mother fucking professional

fallen
i'm fallen
i'm fallen
i'm fallen
i'm fallen