i wrote this song in last july
recorded it this winter
knew i had to touch back on the track
and make it thinner
cuz my transparency
is becoming more apparent
truly a descendant of
both of my misguided parents
part of a misguided youth;
sticking out like a crooked tooth
refuse to end up
on the first page of the news
over some dumb shit
by some dumb clique
i used to roll with
used to have a grip on my brain
now i can't hold it anymore,
cuz i'm fucking with these
stupid bitches that don't understand
i got a mental condition;
yo i am sick, i can really use
your fucking help
but you're too busy
trying to be like everybody else
that ain't a life to have
and i'm right
to have a fucking grievence
when we hate eachother
for so many fucking different reasons
i wanna leave but i can't
'cuz you're the only one left
that'll listen to me rant

everyday just slipped away
when i was busy looking in your eyes
wanted to cure what brings you pain
and never ever tell you a lie
so i let you crawl deeper in my mind
than anyone i met before
knew it would only end in pain
but i refused to walk out that door

i'm a glutton for punishment
addicted to isolation
contradicting myself by always
craving your relation
wanna be with you
need to be inside of you
but at the same time,
i can't stand the sight of you
you make me wanna
stop taking all my fucking meds
like i don't need 'em
but at the same time
take a handful and eat 'em
and i'm sick of you crying
over facebook drama
trying to pass the blame along
and make yourself to be the martyr
i used to do shit,
used to be somebody
used to have friends
now i'm praying everyday
that the fucking world ends
that's a pipe dream
i ain't on the right team
destened for hell fire
ain't getting no bright beams
and that's that
every single one of us
will die alone
i as i continue to vent
directly into my microphone
and keep praying someone
will eventually get the message
and maybe they can rise up
and overcome their depression

everyday just slipped away
when i was busy looking in your eyes
wanted to cure what brings you pain
and never ever tell you a lie
so i let you crawl deeper in my mind
than anyone i met before
knew it would only end in pain
but i refused to walk out that door